By Genevieve Anne Gregorio
BCBP Christian Young Professionals Taguig Chapter
“I am the light of the world. Whoever follows me will not walk in darkness, but will have the light of life.” — John 8:12
The crowds were pouring in, the place was getting packed, the songs were blaring from the sound system, and the lights were starting to flicker and dance around the room.
The moment when the Praisefest began, my companions commented about how cold it was where we were seated. I, on the other hand, did not feel anything.
Fast forward to when we were already on our way home. My companions were still commenting about how cold the venue was and I continued to brush this off by saying, “Parang hindi naman. Hindi ko naramdaman yung lamig.”
My aunt and uncle said, “That’s the (work of the) Holy Spirit in you.” I suddenly found myself smiling and blushing when I heard that. Indeed, it was a night filled by the Holy Spirit and I felt that “It” ignited within me.
I recently have had many questions in my mind, most of which I was able to find answers to. But that night, the Holy Spirit gave me assurance that I was on the right path and that my discernment would pay off.
I was very inspired by the experiences shared by the Speakers. Funny enough, for someone who was single and never been in a relationship, I was very much in awe and interested in the sharing of Ate Lors and Kuya Martin.
One statement that would always remain with me was when they said that “God-written love stories are not like what we see in fairy tales but they look more like the cross ー selfless and unconditional.”
I may not be dating anyone right now but in the future, I will definitely keep in mind this thought when I look for someone who I can run to Jesus with and who I can serve the Lord with.
During the Praisefest, I did not know at least 50 percent of the songs, but the way the community sang each one made me feel like I knew them by heart.
It was true that when we sing, we pray twice, because I’ve felt how powerful our prayers were as the thundering sound of our singing filled the social hall.
I raised my hand way up high for the first time that night. I have been attending worships and prayer assemblies for a while now but I always told myself that I do not need to do what the others were doing to be able to praise God.
I usually just put my hand over my heart while singing but that night was different.
To put it bluntly, hindi mapakali ang kamay ko sa dibdib ko.
“Christ is Enough” was playing and the next thing I knew, my hands were raised up as I sang the lines, “I have decided to follow Jesus . . .” at the top of my lungs and I could feel myself just reaching so high for God.
Almost everyone around me was reaching up for God, too. I was reminded of the importance of being in a community. I’m not perfect. Our members are not perfect. All of us are far from perfection, but we do have a perfect God. What we can do is to come together and bask in His perfect love for us.
I know that I will still have bad days. I will still feel empty at times. I will, at some point, get tired of serving and living, but these thoughts are temporary, while my God is forever.
I am not sure if I am able to give my 101% self to the Lord yet, but I’m getting there. If I fall, I will stand up again, and again, and still keep on lighting the fire within me.
(The author is 21 years old and a graduate of BCLP 8 of BCBP Taguig chapter with perfect attendance from February 17 to June 2, 2018)